Read abt Melanine in dairy products, eggs, etc... Any last nite, I've received an email regarding fake ikan bilis. What am I suppose to eat when I go China 2 wks later? Everything seems 'fishy'. Have to really scrutinise everything before putting them into my mouth.
Though I'm looking forward to my next trip, its the Shanghai portion which I'm more excited abt cos I'll be having a short holiday there before coming back to SG. Hahahaha.... Cold weather for me again... Yeah!! However, I'm still missing HK. I dono. After my very 1st trip to HK in 2005, I've always been looking forward to go there again and again. Probably is the food there. Also partly because of my HK friends that I've known from some chatrooms (though I've not been into for quite some time). Still chat with each other online occassionally.
Today's journey to work was quite ok. Not much pushing and shoving in the train. But I hate it when ppl just cut through the queue in the Bus interchange to get to their bus bay faster at the inconvenience of others. Why do ppl always like to take short cut? How much time can that save? And the inconvenience that you cause to others? Anyway, thats just a small matter la. Hmmm...
This is really random. Suddenly feel like going KTV. Hahahaha... after posting a song on my cousin's blog. Hmmm.... church choir... doesn't seem all that inspiring to me as time goes by. I'm not sure if its cos of me or cos simply, the spiritual input wasn't there at all. And whenever I go to other churches, be it Catholic/Christian, I feeeeeeeeeeel HIS existence. But not in my choir. I only have those tensed up feeling and the leader just wanna let everybody knows that he's in charge, often over-riding the duties of our conductor.
Hmmm... 7yrs ago when I 1st joined this choir, I was so looking forward to each week's practice and never was late. Enjoying every moment that I was singing, knowing that God is with me. 7yrs later, i just feel, its a chore. 7 year itch maybe. But my passion already died down like 3 yrs ago. Its just the friendship that keeps me going. Its really very tiring having to push ppl to do things and those on top are so afraid of committing themselves to do anything. Having them to commit to a date is like wanting their life. You hear all sort of funny reasons. Like other ppl don't need to work. I'm disappointed.
During practice, I was just trying to correct a certain part that's been singing perpetually wrongly despite we've been singing this song for eons. Only to get a comment saying that I'm from blah blah blah choir... can sight-read better... different singing... we are church choir not professionals... Have to show respect to blah blah blah... I've shown enough respect to not rattle of at the top of my voice saying YOU"VE BEEN SINGING THOSE SONGS EVEN BEFORE I WAS BORN AND YET STILL UNABLE TO GET IT RIGHT!!! Oh! Come On! Enough of silly excuses to protect ur face.
When I 1st joined the choir, my voice was soft like a mice. I could hardly hear myself. Though I sing much louder now, I still get drowned by those loud voices. Talking about projecting my voice. I learnt those through courses that our choir had 4-5yrs ago. I don't see why those who also attended those courses are still singing what they used to sing 10yrs ago. This is downright Money Down the Drain. Its true that when it comes to singing, I'm a very technical person and expects perfection. However, after that colourful comment, I've given up in correcting ppl. Totally. My passion for singing... greatly diminished. No compelling reason for me to stay in the choir... I can stay in the choir for God. But with no passion. Singing without passion is like a person without a soul. Why do I have to compromise on this?
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